tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57070974637286607612024-03-08T02:50:31.957-08:00I am Just MeRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-72536715643745497222010-08-22T20:42:00.000-07:002010-08-28T03:11:50.423-07:00EXORCISM OF THE HEARTThere was a time when you'd walk in the room<br /> and just the sight of you...<br /> would make my heart beat so fast. I couldn't think <br /> straight ..Man I thought this was Fate...Meant to last.<br /> That somehow we were meant to be. <br /> Now I feel like such a fool for all the things I refused to see...<br /> Your Love was like the most beautiful field of flowers.<br /> flowers that excrete nothing but poison and reap bitter pain<br /> Sad but true my love for you was only in vain.<br /> But...Today's a new Day. Isn't my friend? <br /> Yeah..the fat lady's sung and this is truly the end.<br /> I'm done with your bag of tricks.. <br /> your bullshit manipulation<br /> reeling me in close on the line<br /> only to shove me away one more time.<br /> You'd stand me up just to push me down..<br /> But you know what? I was never some stupid clown ..<br /> I'm the Queen in your Deck of jokers..<br /> why did I even bother with you? <br /> For me only A King could ever do<br /> And you're not even a Jack ..<br /> so today is the day I'm taking it all back<br /> Yeah today I set myself free from your cancer, <br /> from the grips of your wretched disease.<br /> I took my Sword and I cut you out from the heart of me.<br /> no tears fall from my eyes.There is no sadness.<br /> I feel nothing but happiness inside :) <br /> Yes..perhaps there was a time I'd do anything for you.<br /> Honestly,what haven't I done?<br /> For you I even played the role of a fool..<br /> It was always about what I could do for you.<br /> But..Today's a new day. I got My double edged sword<br /> and I'm startin' to cut..<br /> It may have been true love from the very start.<br /> But today I went ahead and cut it out of my heart<br /> All this time...<br /> I've been living in a Ten bedroom mansion..on top of the world<br /> but today I've packed up my shit and I'm ready to move<br /> standing here lookin' around, there's just nothing but empty rooms<br /> and baby that's exactly what I got left for you..<br /> Yeah..don't start pointin' your finger and callin' names because<br /> the day<br /> will come when you'll see you are the only one to blame for playin' <br /> your games.<br /> To think For a minute I thought you had changed. <br /> Thought you grew up.<br /> Remember how you said you love me?...But the truth is <br /> you were always nothin'but a liar.<br /> Now you'll burn by yourself...alone in your own fire.<br /> Yes, Today's a New day and I am set free..because I went and cut you<br /> out from the very heart of me.<br /> Written by:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-88817608153608036682010-04-25T10:34:00.001-07:002010-04-25T10:34:58.447-07:00REMEMBERINGIn Memory of<br />Christopher Waite<br />I remember..<br />The day when we first met<br />My parents house wasn't even built yet<br />I was just four and you were six<br />remembering how we<br />grew up together in the sticks<br />Playing hockey in the street<br />with all the boys<br />In front of the house we would meet<br />when I would get hurt you'd<br />pick me up,dust me off and get me back on my feet<br />Because of this I am so tough<br />because of you I don't ever give up<br />somehow you were always there<br />you were like a brother. I knew how much you cared<br />I remember there was this day On the bus<br />I started a paper war...how the bus driver got<br />so mad..I had caused such a fuss<br />when people blamed me you took the heat<br />and I just stared at you in disbelief<br />always ready to have my back.<br />I remember nights spent laughing and sharing our dreams<br />while eating bowls of cookies & cream<br />eating popcorn while watching movies and<br />you tickling my feet til I said you were "The king"<br />those times with you were such a groovy thing<br />I remember the parties we went to<br />we were always there<br />when I would drink too much and throw up<br />you were the one holding my hair<br />I'll never forget and<br />Because of this I knew how much you really cared<br />I remember...<br />Days when you would pick me up in your car<br />riding around listening to Bob Seger,Steve Miller<br />and CCR you never left me stranded and with you<br />I always felt like a star..like I mattered.<br />I remember times..<br />when I had hard days you would come lift me<br />up with just your presence and your smile<br />Yes..I know I had it good for a while<br />you would take care of me and I would take care of you<br />it was just something.. for each other we loved to do.<br />But as the story goes..<br />One day there came this terrible fate<br />The world lost a true gem..something so great<br />and I lost my best friend<br />Christopher Scott Waite<br />I'll never forget the day your life<br />came to an end.<br />that morning I shouted at the sky<br />I was angry with the sun for coming up and that<br />the wind still blew..I didn't understand why?<br />how could life go on .. time go by and not<br />stop for someone as good as you~<br /><br /><br />P.S.~ You'll always be missed. you'll never be forgotten<br />For those of us who knew you and the lives you<br />touched..In our hearts you'll always be loved so much<br />For we witnessed something so few ever get to see<br />such a big heart and the display of your generosity<br />you never judged or turned your back<br />you loved unconditionally<br />Because of this you'll be remembered for eternity<br /><br />RIP~ Christopher Scott Waite<br />May 12,1968-July 5,1989<br />Written by...ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-57058677172657549192010-03-14T22:06:00.000-07:002010-03-14T22:14:03.139-07:00Spirit of The WolfOn an autumn night by the light of a full moon<br />we gather embracing hands in a sacred circle<br />around a warm crackling fire we stand together<br />in a clearing by the woods<br />through the brush we hear the sound of Matiki<br />Approaching our circle ever so slowly closer and closer<br />with trepidation..he approaches and walks on the outer edge of<br />our circle.<br />for the wolf has been hunted,slandered and forced from his land<br />by the work of our own hand.<br />Still in this moment around this fire and on this night<br />he offers us his uneasy trust,forgiveness<br />he offers us hope in our kind,he is the giver of peace,rebirth and light<br />He asks us to care for each other as we care for ourselves<br />to care for our future and it's children as the wolf pack cares<br />for the pack and it's children.<br />written by:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-45758131516864585092010-01-21T01:01:00.000-08:002010-01-21T01:20:09.362-08:00BUTTERFLYThere was a time so long ago<br />when I kept my truth hid <br />so deep inside<br />I was nothing but a lonely child<br />the things I knew and what I felt<br />dealing with so many bad cards<br />that I'd been dealt..<br />somehow I'd do it all by myself<br />But you came along just singing your song<br />then I realized all this time<br />how much I'd been wrong.<br />I decided to let it all out<br />don't listen to fear and removed all my doubt<br />I began to see what it was all about.<br />Now I can be me and let others see<br />only then could I set my heart and soul free<br />makes me feel like a butterfly free to fly<br />as I spread my wings now I can sing<br />Yes.. my Life is such a beautiful thing<br /><br />Written by:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-65454432512272337092010-01-21T00:40:00.000-08:002010-01-21T00:56:56.617-08:00I BELIEVEI believe in fairies that fly<br />I believe in leprechauns<br />I see life through a child's eyes<br />I believe in love at first sight<br />I believe that trust still exists<br />with all my might<br />I believe in God up above and<br />in all the things he made<br />he shows us unconditional love<br />I believe in Super Heroes and Fairy tales<br />I believe mankind can still prevail<br />I believe in me and all that I have inside<br />I believe in my naive innocence it's<br />something I just can't hide<br />I believe in you and your ability<br />I believe together people can move mountains<br />and make a miracles out of strife<br />I believe in having dreams and making<br />them come to life<br /><br /><br />Written By:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-83222231179528329382010-01-16T11:34:00.001-08:002010-01-16T11:34:40.178-08:00HAPPINESSTo be Happy is a choice<br />It comes from with in<br />It's not in the things<br />we have or in our circumstances<br />it's up to us to find the joy<br />in life<br />so don't take it for granted<br /><br />How it is that you choose to see<br />is all it will ever be<br />make it a good day<br />put a smile on your face<br />and be happy for all<br />that comes your way<br />create what you want for you<br />believe in your heart that it's already true<br />our Happiness and what Happens in life is<br />always been up to me and you<br />so....<br />Rejoice in the birds that sing<br />and the clear blue skies up above<br />the air that you breathe..all the little things<br />especially the ability to love<br />what will it be ..how do you choose to see?<br />because it's always up to you and me.<br />It's our own responsibility.<br /><br />Written By:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-27334037927259548052009-11-20T22:56:00.000-08:002009-11-20T23:46:03.372-08:00THE RAVENSwirling black magic in a midnight sky<br /> See her spread her majestic wings<br /> As she ascends up above so high<br /> Looking down and watching with a<br /> Mother's caring eye so wise like a sage<br /> Reaching out to save the world from <br /> it's Impending rage<br /> This is her true desire but somehow even so<br /> off to her own Misadventures she must go<br /> Fighting against her inner demons<br /> this struggle she keeps silent and no one knows.<br /> flying from one catastrophe to the next<br /> learning as she goes <br /> collecting knowledge for a world in need <br /> For one day she'll come back to earth <br /> give her message and sow a seed<br /> A message of love,hope.. rebirth<br /> Free the world of judgement and greed<br /> heal the heart of mankind<br /> for this love we will transcend<br /> bring us back together and<br /> embrace a world filled with peace instead<br /> <br /> <br /> Written by:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-16262124649311945632009-11-20T21:44:00.000-08:002009-11-20T21:46:29.265-08:00$ FAME $Throwing your rights up in the air<br />See where it is they land<br />Can't go where you want<br />There is people who would mob<br />you everywhere<br />No peace of mind or quiet space<br />Of your privacy you are raped<br />Things once taken for granted<br />You can never replace<br />From this prize called fame<br />You see there is no escape<br />Now everyone knows your name<br />Since childhood it's what<br />you always wanted<br />Oh, if you only knew the cost<br />of all the simple times that are lost<br />What would you choose?<br />You once looked through<br />rose colored glasses<br />something which you can<br />no longer do.<br /><br />Written By:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-68334236521574043302009-11-17T09:38:00.000-08:002009-11-17T10:26:24.078-08:00MY FOREVER LOVE <3There was this man that I once knew<br />Such a long time ago.<br />we made each other laugh,sing and smile.<br />Ohh..How I loved him so.<br />we were like children in each other's eye's<br />so innocent and wild<br />He filled my heart with such great joy...<br />the kind I thought I would never know.<br />but one day he walked away and he let me go<br />ripped my heart out and broke it in two<br />and since that day<br />my heart remains the deepest shade of forever blue.<br /><br />Written by:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-80815485898256692552009-11-17T08:48:00.000-08:002009-11-17T08:58:22.786-08:00WICKED MISCHIEFMy girls and me are goin' out tonight<br />gonna kick up the dirt, knock<br /> Our boots...ride a bull til' daylight<br /> ya we're coming to your town<br />to Some Rockin' bar ...<br /> Me and my girls gonna break it down.<br /> it's girl Power... And we're all a Rock Star<br />you know there ain't nothing to fear<br />It's just some Wicked Mischief to be clear.<br /> and even after we go ...you'll know We've been Here.<br />Ya we're out on the streets and off the hook<br /> we'll make heads turn. Hey..we saw you look<br />Gonna go listen to a band and drink some beer<br /> bang our heads, maybe sing and cheer.<br /> we'll hit the floor.. shake our booty and dance.<br />Ain't looking for the one. Don't want some Romance<br />we're just here having fun.<br />So you don't stand a chance..<br />There ain't nothing to fear It's just some<br />Wicked Mischief is all..and when we're done<br />and it's past last call.<br /> you'll know we We're here and we had a ball.<br /><br />Written by :) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-60220612845914741372009-11-12T10:11:00.000-08:002009-11-22T15:28:16.939-08:00FROM ME 2 YOUI went searching for the truth...and I found nothing but lies.<br />I believed those lies because I am not perfect...I am human after all.<br />I didn't hold all the cards in my hand..I could not see ...I didn't know.<br />You expected more from me and I failed you miserably.I let you down<br />You will never know the depth of sadness in my heart because you are no longer around..<br />I wonder if someday you could find it in your heart to forgive me<br />in spite of the fact that I am an imperfect fool?<br />I love you regardless ...no matter where you go or what you do..<br />With ♥ from Me to You<br /><br />Written by :) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-13700518940326958052009-11-11T08:50:00.000-08:002009-11-11T08:52:06.837-08:00BONFIRE ON THE BEACHWatch it flicker n' flit<br /> Golden embers sway<br /> Feel the warmth of the<br /> glowing flames<br /> On my skin as we dance the night away<br /> Around a red hot ring of fire<br /> I will give everything<br /> all that you desire<br /> see this grow as it builds<br /> Our love..this fire<br /> reaching ever closer<br /> to a Midnight star filled sky<br /> We are enchanted as we watch<br /> In the quiet of this moment<br /> we stop to glance ..to play<br /> then<br /> our eyes they meet<br /> I see your love..your light<br /> know my love for you is to keep<br /> and your smile..It<br /> gives me a warmth and a comfort<br /> I have always known ..(it was you).<br /> Our love like this fire has only grown.<br /> In the quiet of this moment<br /> you touch your hand to mine<br /> Then slowly we reach out to embrace<br /> Oh..And to feel your lips<br /> and the taste of red wine<br /> Nothing could ever be sweeter<br /> Than this time ,this place<br /> The depths of our passion<br /> Played out in this kiss<br /> Like the depths of deepest sea<br /> We exist in this blanket of forever like bliss<br /> Around a circle of fire on a sandy beach<br /> In each other's arms<br /> Our hearts together will always be<br /> <br /> Written by) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-302450538020454362009-11-11T00:54:00.000-08:002009-11-17T10:04:36.731-08:00>YOU WERE<More than a friend you were to hold<br />I Remember when we held each other<br /> Through all the sorrow..all this pain<br />You kept my heart from turning Cold<br /> Then I stopped walking,wandering around<br />Living my life in Vain..<br />You Are<br /> The light that fills my very soul<br />You just being gives me Hope<br /> And maybe though I wanted...<br />Now I know I am Never alone.<br /> A Reflection of Me I see in you<br /> Makes me believe in us..<br /> This is What I know to be true.<br /><br />P.S.~ These Things No one knows<br /> kept in words and what was said.<br /> Written down somewhere,someplace..<br /> Who knows?.. all of this Could just be in my head.<br /><br />Written By:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-29129217439388973502009-11-07T21:41:00.000-08:002009-11-17T10:19:23.698-08:00* TO TAME A HURRICANE *Close your eyes and you can feel it<br />The whipping of the wind, smell the sent of the rain<br />in the air..feel the drops on your skin . you know when it's coming<br />ya..you'd be better off tryin'to stop a train<br />Than to tame the fury of this Hurricane.<br />A Temper not matched by a raging sea and<br />A tongue as sharp as any sword could ever be .I'll<br />Cut you down and make you bleed and that's what<br />you'll get for messin' with me.<br />But Somehow you manage to weather the storm . You work<br />your way through to the center of my core..you quiet the wind<br />that stirs inside..from your voice and your words I can not<br />hide. You tame this Hurricane of mine and you're<br />the only one who ever could.<br /><br />I believe in my freedom. No one tells me how to live<br />and I come and go as I choose. Answer to God only and this<br />is the lesson I have to give. Love with no limit.<br />Feel with no restraint..Ya I tell it like it is..Like<br />wild horses with no fences. Can't you see you won't pen<br />me in?<br />Oh... you'd be better off tryin' to control the rain than<br />To play with this crazy Hurricane.<br />But somehow you weather this storm.You work your way to the center<br />Of my core...and Like No one has ever Before. With your ways you grab my<br />Attention..you penetrate the heart of this dirty whore<br />I don't care to be so wild anymore.<br />You smooth the rough waters in my battered soul.<br />You tame this Hurricane of mine<br />And you're the only one that ever would.<br /><br />You know me. I have a mind of my own..yes I'm a free thinker<br />Have my opinions and my own thoughts<br />I'll think what I think and say what I want ..<br />People talk their smack ..damn you're too independent,<br />I never listen . Well..I do it my way and I'll defend my position.<br />sure I talk a big game..guess I only got myself to blame<br />after all..<br />ya..you'd be better off tryin' to make sense of the Insane<br />then tryin' to reign in this Hurricane<br />But you came along ..somehow you weathered the storm. You work<br />your way to the center of my core..Sure I'll keep my own thoughts..and my<br />freespirit... but I won't think of only me anymore. Someway and I can't<br />explain it..you tame this Hurricane of mine and you're the only<br />one who ever could.<br />Written by:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-74880875405713839752009-11-07T12:02:00.001-08:002009-11-07T12:06:03.606-08:00~ DREAM STEALER~In the Dead of Night <br /> Satan comes to me.<br /> Appeared to me in a dream<br /> He looked up at me with<br /> Wicked dark eyes<br /> An evil look full of<br /> Debauchery and smiled.<br /> A smile of satisfaction<br /> As if to say..He got what<br /> He came for...My desire.<br /> I knew who he was<br /> And what he wanted..My Dreams.<br /> The very sight of This<br /> Frightened me so. <br /> It paralyzed me<br /> sent chills through me to the bone.<br /> Nothing came but a silent scream<br /> I was Helpless or so It Seemed<br /> twisting , turning<br /> Suffocating in this dark abyss.<br /> And For me there was no sleep<br /> Because he comes to me<br /> For me and my dreams alone....<br /><br /> But Just when think this story is done<br /> And things look as though they are bleak<br /> There is happiness to this end <br /> For it is me who has won.<br /> Just when you think I might have lost<br /> And surrendered to his every whim<br /> Sure, I know you did.<br /> I stood up to him<br /> Looked him staight in the eye<br /> And showed him who I really am ; )<br /> I kicked his ass!!<br /> So the bastard fears me instead<br /> Now my dreams will never die!<br /> <br /> Written by:) ReneelisaRENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707097463728660761.post-69284840970077846222009-11-07T00:50:00.000-08:002009-11-17T10:18:32.290-08:00~THE ROSE~ @>~%~~~ A ROSE HAVE I LOVED ~<br /><br />The Stars in the Sky exist in his Eyes<br />A Smile full of Mischief... it would seem..<br />I've Seen Him light up a crowd with This kinda crazy magnetic energy<br />Some would say he is up to No Good, Selfish and Angry.<br />Well... There is something that maybe no one knows<br />And here is what I see..<br />He has more love and care than any man<br />bet you never guessed..<br />He Ain't quite the Dog he Was always Made out to Be<br />A Man with such a Kind Heart<br />I don't think he even knows<br />Just how he really saved me<br />You Know...<br />I was once filled with A Deep Sadness<br />Nothing but Darkness and Pain<br />In the Moment That I needed Him<br />There he was...<br />Then I began to see this light and<br />Somehow He showed Me Another way<br />Now I laugh ... I am open<br />And I see just how good life can be<br />If I Could have one wish...<br />It would Be an Honor to show my gratitude<br />For all the things I know He's done..Just bein' who he is<br />Oh..If he could only see<br />How far I've really come<br />How He Inspires and What it means to Me<br />**Thank you Axl Rose**<br /><br />Written by: Reneelisa<br />************************RENEELISAhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12506144020430386432noreply@blogger.com0