EXORCISM OF THE HEART

There was a time when you'd walk in the room
and just the sight of you...
would make my heart beat so fast. I couldn't think
straight ..Man I thought this was Fate...Meant to last.
That somehow we were meant to be.
Now I feel like such a fool for all the things I refused to see...
Your Love was like the most beautiful field of flowers.
flowers that excrete nothing but poison and reap bitter pain
Sad but true my love for you was only in vain.
But...Today's a new Day. Isn't my friend?
Yeah..the fat lady's sung and this is truly the end.
I'm done with your bag of tricks..
your bullshit manipulation
reeling me in close on the line
only to shove me away one more time.
You'd stand me up just to push me down..
But you know what? I was never some stupid clown ..
I'm the Queen in your Deck of jokers..
why did I even bother with you?
For me only A King could ever do
And you're not even a Jack ..
so today is the day I'm taking it all back
Yeah today I set myself free from your cancer,
from the grips of your wretched disease.
I took my Sword and I cut you out from the heart of me.
no tears fall from my eyes.There is no sadness.
I feel nothing but happiness inside :)
Yes..perhaps there was a time I'd do anything for you.
Honestly,what haven't I done?
For you I even played the role of a fool..
It was always about what I could do for you.
But..Today's a new day. I got My double edged sword
and I'm startin' to cut..
It may have been true love from the very start.
But today I went ahead and cut it out of my heart
All this time...
I've been living in a Ten bedroom mansion..on top of the world
but today I've packed up my shit and I'm ready to move
standing here lookin' around, there's just nothing but empty rooms
and baby that's exactly what I got left for you..
Yeah..don't start pointin' your finger and callin' names because
the day
will come when you'll see you are the only one to blame for playin'
your games.
To think For a minute I thought you had changed.
Thought you grew up.
Remember how you said you love me?...But the truth is
you were always nothin'but a liar.
Now you'll burn by yourself...alone in your own fire.
Yes, Today's a New day and I am set free..because I went and cut you
out from the very heart of me.
Written by:) Reneelisa

REMEMBERING

In Memory of
Christopher Waite
I remember..
The day when we first met
My parents house wasn't even built yet
I was just four and you were six
remembering how we
grew up together in the sticks
Playing hockey in the street
with all the boys
In front of the house we would meet
when I would get hurt you'd
pick me up,dust me off and get me back on my feet
Because of this I am so tough
because of you I don't ever give up
somehow you were always there
you were like a brother. I knew how much you cared
I remember there was this day On the bus
I started a paper war...how the bus driver got
so mad..I had caused such a fuss
when people blamed me you took the heat
and I just stared at you in disbelief
always ready to have my back.
I remember nights spent laughing and sharing our dreams
while eating bowls of cookies & cream
eating popcorn while watching movies and
you tickling my feet til I said you were "The king"
those times with you were such a groovy thing
I remember the parties we went to
we were always there
when I would drink too much and throw up
you were the one holding my hair
I'll never forget and
Because of this I knew how much you really cared
I remember...
Days when you would pick me up in your car
riding around listening to Bob Seger,Steve Miller
and CCR you never left me stranded and with you
I always felt like a star..like I mattered.
I remember times..
when I had hard days you would come lift me
up with just your presence and your smile
Yes..I know I had it good for a while
you would take care of me and I would take care of you
it was just something.. for each other we loved to do.
But as the story goes..
One day there came this terrible fate
The world lost a true gem..something so great
and I lost my best friend
Christopher Scott Waite
I'll never forget the day your life
came to an end.
that morning I shouted at the sky
I was angry with the sun for coming up and that
the wind still blew..I didn't understand why?
how could life go on .. time go by and not
stop for someone as good as you~


P.S.~ You'll always be missed. you'll never be forgotten
For those of us who knew you and the lives you
touched..In our hearts you'll always be loved so much
For we witnessed something so few ever get to see
such a big heart and the display of your generosity
you never judged or turned your back
you loved unconditionally
Because of this you'll be remembered for eternity

RIP~ Christopher Scott Waite
May 12,1968-July 5,1989
Written by...Reneelisa

Spirit of The Wolf

On an autumn night by the light of a full moon
we gather embracing hands in a sacred circle
around a warm crackling fire we stand together
in a clearing by the woods
through the brush we hear the sound of Matiki
Approaching our circle ever so slowly closer and closer
with trepidation..he approaches and walks on the outer edge of
our circle.
for the wolf has been hunted,slandered and forced from his land
by the work of our own hand.
Still in this moment around this fire and on this night
he offers us his uneasy trust,forgiveness
he offers us hope in our kind,he is the giver of peace,rebirth and light
He asks us to care for each other as we care for ourselves
to care for our future and it's children as the wolf pack cares
for the pack and it's children.
written by:) Reneelisa

BUTTERFLY

There was a time so long ago
when I kept my truth hid
so deep inside
I was nothing but a lonely child
the things I knew and what I felt
dealing with so many bad cards
that I'd been dealt..
somehow I'd do it all by myself
But you came along just singing your song
then I realized all this time
how much I'd been wrong.
I decided to let it all out
don't listen to fear and removed all my doubt
I began to see what it was all about.
Now I can be me and let others see
only then could I set my heart and soul free
makes me feel like a butterfly free to fly
as I spread my wings now I can sing
Yes.. my Life is such a beautiful thing

Written by:) Reneelisa

I BELIEVE

I believe in fairies that fly
I believe in leprechauns
I see life through a child's eyes
I believe in love at first sight
I believe that trust still exists
with all my might
I believe in God up above and
in all the things he made
he shows us unconditional love
I believe in Super Heroes and Fairy tales
I believe mankind can still prevail
I believe in me and all that I have inside
I believe in my naive innocence it's
something I just can't hide
I believe in you and your ability
I believe together people can move mountains
and make a miracles out of strife
I believe in having dreams and making
them come to life


Written By:) Reneelisa

HAPPINESS

To be Happy is a choice
It comes from with in
It's not in the things
we have or in our circumstances
it's up to us to find the joy
in life
so don't take it for granted

How it is that you choose to see
is all it will ever be
make it a good day
put a smile on your face
and be happy for all
that comes your way
create what you want for you
believe in your heart that it's already true
our Happiness and what Happens in life is
always been up to me and you
so....
Rejoice in the birds that sing
and the clear blue skies up above
the air that you breathe..all the little things
especially the ability to love
what will it be ..how do you choose to see?
because it's always up to you and me.
It's our own responsibility.

Written By:) Reneelisa

THE RAVEN

Swirling black magic in a midnight sky
See her spread her majestic wings
As she ascends up above so high
Looking down and watching with a
Mother's caring eye so wise like a sage
Reaching out to save the world from
it's Impending rage
This is her true desire but somehow even so
off to her own Misadventures she must go
Fighting against her inner demons
this struggle she keeps silent and no one knows.
flying from one catastrophe to the next
learning as she goes
collecting knowledge for a world in need
For one day she'll come back to earth
give her message and sow a seed
A message of love,hope.. rebirth
Free the world of judgement and greed
heal the heart of mankind
for this love we will transcend
bring us back together and
embrace a world filled with peace instead


Written by:) Reneelisa

$ FAME $

Throwing your rights up in the air
See where it is they land
Can't go where you want
There is people who would mob
you everywhere
No peace of mind or quiet space
Of your privacy you are raped
Things once taken for granted
You can never replace
From this prize called fame
You see there is no escape
Now everyone knows your name
Since childhood it's what
you always wanted
Oh, if you only knew the cost
of all the simple times that are lost
What would you choose?
You once looked through
rose colored glasses
something which you can
no longer do.

Written By:) Reneelisa

MY FOREVER LOVE <3

There was this man that I once knew
Such a long time ago.
we made each other laugh,sing and smile.
Ohh..How I loved him so.
we were like children in each other's eye's
so innocent and wild
He filled my heart with such great joy...
the kind I thought I would never know.
but one day he walked away and he let me go
ripped my heart out and broke it in two
and since that day
my heart remains the deepest shade of forever blue.

Written by:) Reneelisa

WICKED MISCHIEF

My girls and me are goin' out tonight
gonna kick up the dirt, knock
Our boots...ride a bull til' daylight
ya we're coming to your town
to Some Rockin' bar ...
Me and my girls gonna break it down.
it's girl Power... And we're all a Rock Star
you know there ain't nothing to fear
It's just some Wicked Mischief to be clear.
and even after we go ...you'll know We've been Here.
Ya we're out on the streets and off the hook
we'll make heads turn. Hey..we saw you look
Gonna go listen to a band and drink some beer
bang our heads, maybe sing and cheer.
we'll hit the floor.. shake our booty and dance.
Ain't looking for the one. Don't want some Romance
we're just here having fun.
So you don't stand a chance..
There ain't nothing to fear It's just some
Wicked Mischief is all..and when we're done
and it's past last call.
you'll know we We're here and we had a ball.

Written by :) Reneelisa

FROM ME 2 YOU

I went searching for the truth...and I found nothing but lies.
I believed those lies because I am not perfect...I am human after all.
I didn't hold all the cards in my hand..I could not see ...I didn't know.
You expected more from me and I failed you miserably.I let you down
You will never know the depth of sadness in my heart because you are no longer around..
I wonder if someday you could find it in your heart to forgive me
in spite of the fact that I am an imperfect fool?
I love you regardless ...no matter where you go or what you do..
With ♥ from Me to You

Written by :) Reneelisa

BONFIRE ON THE BEACH

Watch it flicker n' flit
Golden embers sway
Feel the warmth of the
glowing flames
On my skin as we dance the night away
Around a red hot ring of fire
I will give everything
all that you desire
see this grow as it builds
Our love..this fire
reaching ever closer
to a Midnight star filled sky
We are enchanted as we watch
In the quiet of this moment
we stop to glance ..to play
then
our eyes they meet
I see your love..your light
know my love for you is to keep
and your smile..It
gives me a warmth and a comfort
I have always known ..(it was you).
Our love like this fire has only grown.
In the quiet of this moment
you touch your hand to mine
Then slowly we reach out to embrace
Oh..And to feel your lips
and the taste of red wine
Nothing could ever be sweeter
Than this time ,this place
The depths of our passion
Played out in this kiss
Like the depths of deepest sea
We exist in this blanket of forever like bliss
Around a circle of fire on a sandy beach
In each other's arms
Our hearts together will always be

Written by) Reneelisa

>YOU WERE<

More than a friend you were to hold
I Remember when we held each other
Through all the sorrow..all this pain
You kept my heart from turning Cold
Then I stopped walking,wandering around
Living my life in Vain..
You Are
The light that fills my very soul
You just being gives me Hope
And maybe though I wanted...
Now I know I am Never alone.
A Reflection of Me I see in you
Makes me believe in us..
This is What I know to be true.

P.S.~ These Things No one knows
kept in words and what was said.
Written down somewhere,someplace..
Who knows?.. all of this Could just be in my head.

Written By:) Reneelisa

* TO TAME A HURRICANE *

Close your eyes and you can feel it
The whipping of the wind, smell the sent of the rain
in the air..feel the drops on your skin . you know when it's coming
ya..you'd be better off tryin'to stop a train
Than to tame the fury of this Hurricane.
A Temper not matched by a raging sea and
A tongue as sharp as any sword could ever be .I'll
Cut you down and make you bleed and that's what
you'll get for messin' with me.
But Somehow you manage to weather the storm . You work
your way through to the center of my core..you quiet the wind
that stirs inside..from your voice and your words I can not
hide. You tame this Hurricane of mine and you're
the only one who ever could.

I believe in my freedom. No one tells me how to live
and I come and go as I choose. Answer to God only and this
is the lesson I have to give. Love with no limit.
Feel with no restraint..Ya I tell it like it is..Like
wild horses with no fences. Can't you see you won't pen
me in?
Oh... you'd be better off tryin' to control the rain than
To play with this crazy Hurricane.
But somehow you weather this storm.You work your way to the center
Of my core...and Like No one has ever Before. With your ways you grab my
Attention..you penetrate the heart of this dirty whore
I don't care to be so wild anymore.
You smooth the rough waters in my battered soul.
You tame this Hurricane of mine
And you're the only one that ever would.

You know me. I have a mind of my own..yes I'm a free thinker
Have my opinions and my own thoughts
I'll think what I think and say what I want ..
People talk their smack ..damn you're too independent,
I never listen . Well..I do it my way and I'll defend my position.
sure I talk a big game..guess I only got myself to blame
after all..
ya..you'd be better off tryin' to make sense of the Insane
then tryin' to reign in this Hurricane
But you came along ..somehow you weathered the storm. You work
your way to the center of my core..Sure I'll keep my own thoughts..and my
freespirit... but I won't think of only me anymore. Someway and I can't
explain it..you tame this Hurricane of mine and you're the only
one who ever could.
Written by:) Reneelisa

~ DREAM STEALER~

In the Dead of Night
Satan comes to me.
Appeared to me in a dream
He looked up at me with
Wicked dark eyes
An evil look full of
Debauchery and smiled.
A smile of satisfaction
As if to say..He got what
He came for...My desire.
I knew who he was
And what he wanted..My Dreams.
The very sight of This
Frightened me so.
It paralyzed me
sent chills through me to the bone.
Nothing came but a silent scream
I was Helpless or so It Seemed
twisting , turning
Suffocating in this dark abyss.
And For me there was no sleep
Because he comes to me
For me and my dreams alone....

But Just when think this story is done
And things look as though they are bleak
There is happiness to this end
For it is me who has won.
Just when you think I might have lost
And surrendered to his every whim
Sure, I know you did.
I stood up to him
Looked him staight in the eye
And showed him who I really am ; )
I kicked his ass!!
So the bastard fears me instead
Now my dreams will never die!

Written by:) Reneelisa

~THE ROSE~ @>~%~~

~ A ROSE HAVE I LOVED ~

The Stars in the Sky exist in his Eyes
A Smile full of Mischief... it would seem..
I've Seen Him light up a crowd with This kinda crazy magnetic energy
Some would say he is up to No Good, Selfish and Angry.
Well... There is something that maybe no one knows
And here is what I see..
He has more love and care than any man
bet you never guessed..
He Ain't quite the Dog he Was always Made out to Be
A Man with such a Kind Heart
I don't think he even knows
Just how he really saved me
You Know...
I was once filled with A Deep Sadness
Nothing but Darkness and Pain
In the Moment That I needed Him
There he was...
Then I began to see this light and
Somehow He showed Me Another way
Now I laugh ... I am open
And I see just how good life can be
If I Could have one wish...
It would Be an Honor to show my gratitude
For all the things I know He's done..Just bein' who he is
Oh..If he could only see
How far I've really come
How He Inspires and What it means to Me
**Thank you Axl Rose**

Written by: Reneelisa
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